Early this morning, I was asked by someone to do a blog basically putting everything I think and I feel towards her. This is actually close to my other blogs, Letters To People. The only difference is that, in here, I’d be dishing everything to just ONE person. So let me get it started!
Okay. I said I’m going to start but I can’t yet. I don’t know how to start, haha! *deep breathe* (I need!)
In three, two, one….
It’s actually pretty hard to think because as far as I can remember I’ve already told you most of the things I think about you. Well, I’m just going to keep this going.
Since I spent 25 minutes of thinking what to say, might as well read that first kase eto pa lang, magsisimula pa lang ako. 😀 That was a photo caption I posted before for you, I know you know that. Throwback lang 😀
So here na…
You were actually one of those hundreds of people I felt the urge to approach first. I don’t even have the idea why. You were a bit famous back then but I wasn’t hesitant to know you and to be friends with you because I know, we can be! Why not, gosh, sayang yun, opportunity mo na yun. Hahaha! But kidding aside though, I am happy we’ve met. 🙂
At first, I find you quite intimidating. You seem to have this very strong personality that even made me think you can always manipulate people. I was always afraid to ask you, or to tell you something, or to crack jokes because I don’t really know what’s going through your mind. I was just afraid that maybe, if I say something, you’ll think of something bad about me. And as the time goes by, I get to know you, your flaws, shortcomings, weaknesses and strengths. And I liked how it all went.
And as I’ve known you, you were the person who is most likely slow to trust people and when you do, you trust so much. You’re one of those oversensitive people. You used to be. You strongly get attached to things and when unwanted events come into your way, you overthink, and admit it, you usually divert things to negative thoughts. Well I don’t want to say you’re weak because you always do this. But refrain from doing it, okay? It’s no good for you. You are… indecisive. Remember the times when we used to talk about what’s wrong with your life? It’s because you cannot decide clearly what you want (in your life, career, love life).You’re easily annoyed by something you can’t accept or understand. Sometimes you wanted to feel strong even when I know, deep down, you were not. You take things personally sometimes. You’re frank and sometimes you do not know you are already hurting people including me.
But above all the flaws…
You are good enough. You’re the person who doesn’t like to go to parties to drink and to dance but instead you go out with your friends over milk teas, coffees, movies, etc,.That is life for you. You know your priorities. You’re not really fond of reading books, but you always want to know what’s inside, what’s the story. And you get used to reading. You’re good in conversations, you listen well and you say things better. You inspire people with your bravery and courage to stick to things that you are not really used to do and how you are passionate on work. You’re one of those friends who always over-weigh the good traits from the bad (proven). You’re one of those women who stand behind his man to support him in every inch of the way he’s leading to. You’re the masungit sister of someone but I know you love her. You’re not that close to your Mama and Papa but I know you love them generously. And lastly… You’re the person I wish to say thank you for being you.
(I did not sugarcoat things up there, I wish you knew! Hahaha. It came the way it is. It’s really hard to think of your bad sides or the things that I hate about you because maybe you are that good)
Let me just leave you a message.
I cannot define a good friendship without you. I hope in time, you’d get to believe more in yourself and try to control and hold more of your feelings so you don’t end up sad or hurt because as of now, that lacks in you. I pray for your sunshine everyday and whether it comes rainy one day, you know who you would call. Hm, what else.. I’m sorry for those times I disappoint you and pissed you off. I didn’t mean to. I’ve learned a lot things from you and I’m still learning. Thank you for everything! This aren’t all nice words but I hope you appreciate this. I hope to see you soon! Take care. I’m blessed to have you! 🙂
Make something like this for me, too! Haha