My Happy List // 02

– White sheets and pillows
– Late night talks
– Snickers
– The feeling after bath
– Staycations
– Amusement Parks
– Staring at someone
– Seeing someone smile because of me
– Summer catch ups/ Night caps
– Having at least 6 hours of sleep
– My best friends
– Kids

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Thinking of You

I think of you the moment I wake up until I fall asleep at night. It bothers me but you seem to be the sunshine that always gives me light.

I think of you whether the place is in chaos or empty, whether the people are upset and annoy me.

I think of how you’ve been, how was your day, wishing you’re happy and everything’s okay.

I think of you as my clouds turn gray,
Hoping that one day, you won’t get tired saying “Hey.”

I think of you but it becomes something to worry about. I know I should not but sorry baby, I still can’t find the other way out.

TOWARDS YOU.

I think of you daily for months now. The days went on and they were all unpredictable. Some days were low and sad, some were up and bright. I used to call you a friend, then it came to the point that we acted like more than that. Until I almost said RIP to the friendship because you were troubled and then you left. Those days, weeks, without your messages put me down. I asked myself why it has to end in such a way. I put myself on the ground to realize if I really had lost something. Then I realized, why should I be sad if the one I love left me? You should be. Because you lost someone who loves you. I then convinced myself to cut ties and move on. But every time I go outside, something reminds you of me and I lose all the progress I made. Someone mentions your name, someone looks like you, someone smells like you, and it sucks that it all bring me back to where I started. I refused to reply on your text messages convincing myself that I could. But honestly, I’m hating myself every time I could not resist. Until one day, things do not bother me anymore. And then one day again, I think of you again and think of you more and more. Now, it is not your fault that I feel this way. It is not my fault as well but this is my choice. I hope there comes a day in our lives that we see each other happy with someone else’s arms, when neither of us is a trouble in mind or a chaos in head — the time that we could actually say, “We are very good friends.”

– AC
1:17 am

Wanna Meet You in My Perspective?

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Early this morning, I was asked by someone to do a blog basically putting everything I think and I feel towards her. This is actually close to my other blogs, Letters To People. The only difference is that, in here, I’d be dishing everything to just ONE person. So let me get it started!

Okay. I said I’m going to start but I can’t yet. I don’t know how to start, haha! *deep breathe* (I need!)

In three, two, one….

It’s actually pretty hard to think because as far as I can remember I’ve already told you most of the things I think about you. Well, I’m just going to keep this going.

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Since I spent 25 minutes of thinking what to say, might as well read that first kase eto pa lang, magsisimula pa lang ako. 😀 That was a photo caption I posted before for you, I know you know that. Throwback lang 😀

So here na…

You were actually one of those hundreds of people I felt the urge to approach first. I don’t even have the idea why. You were a bit famous back then but I wasn’t hesitant to know you and to be friends with you because I know, we can be! Why not, gosh, sayang yun, opportunity mo na yun. Hahaha! But kidding aside though, I am happy we’ve met. 🙂

At first, I find you quite intimidating. You seem to have this very strong personality that even made me think you can always manipulate people. I was always afraid to ask you, or to tell you something, or to crack jokes because I don’t really know what’s going through your mind. I was just afraid that maybe, if I say something, you’ll think of something bad about me. And as the time goes by, I get to know you, your flaws, shortcomings, weaknesses and strengths. And I liked how it all went.

And as I’ve known you, you were the person who is most likely slow to trust people and when you do, you trust so much. You’re one of those oversensitive people. You used to be. You strongly get attached to things and when unwanted events come into your way, you overthink, and admit it, you usually divert things to negative thoughts. Well I don’t want to say you’re weak because you always do this. But refrain from doing it, okay? It’s no good for you. You are… indecisive. Remember the times when we used to talk about what’s wrong with your life? It’s because you cannot decide clearly what you want (in your life, career, love life).You’re easily annoyed by something you can’t accept or understand. Sometimes you wanted to feel strong even when I know, deep down, you were not. You take things personally sometimes. You’re frank and sometimes you do not know you are already hurting people including me.

But above all the flaws…

You are good enough. You’re the person who doesn’t like to go to parties to drink and to dance but instead you go out with your friends over milk teas, coffees, movies, etc,.That is life for you. You know your priorities. You’re not really fond of reading books, but you always want to know what’s inside, what’s the story. And you get used to reading. You’re good in conversations, you listen well and you say things better. You inspire people with your bravery and courage to stick to things that you are not really used to do and how you are passionate on work. You’re one of those friends who always over-weigh the good traits from the bad (proven). You’re one of those women who stand behind his man to support him in every inch of the way he’s leading to. You’re the masungit sister of someone but I know you love her. You’re not that close to your Mama and Papa but I know you love them generously. And lastly… You’re the person I wish to say thank you for being you.

(I did not sugarcoat things up there, I wish you knew! Hahaha. It came the way it is. It’s really hard to think of your bad sides or the things that I hate about you because maybe you are that good)

Let me just leave you a message.

I cannot define a good friendship without you. I hope in time, you’d get to believe more in yourself and try to control and hold more of your feelings so you don’t end up sad or hurt because as of now, that lacks in you. I pray for your sunshine everyday and whether it comes rainy one day, you know who you would call. Hm, what else.. I’m sorry for those times I disappoint you and pissed you off. I didn’t mean to. I’ve learned a lot things from you and I’m still learning. Thank you for everything! This aren’t all nice words but I hope you appreciate this. I hope to see you soon! Take care. I’m blessed to have you! 🙂

PS.

Make something like this for me, too! Haha

The Sunday Currently Vol. 1

Hello! I haven’t done this yet. Obviously, this is VOLUME ONE so it means, this is the first! You should pity the fool, who in this case is me.

READING

I have no new books so I’m spending some time reading some articles from Elite Daily.

WRITING

Just blogging for now but I want to write someone a letter. HAHA!

LISTENING

I am on Ellie Goulding hangover again. Since I watched 50 Shades of Grey, I couldn’t get this song out of my head. “Love me like you do, la la love me like you do” Later LSS ka na 😁😝

THINKING

Of someone, as usual. Ha ha! Kidding. I’m just thinking what it is like to have a $10 Billion.

SMELLING

My shirt. I have no idea why I smell like a baby. Wooooh. Sorry for that face of annoyance ✌

WISHING

I am with somebody right now having some Smore’s or Nutella ice cream while watching movies.

HOPING

What’s the difference of wishing and hoping?

LOVING

Fresh air that’s coming from my room’s windows. Ahhhh. It’s refreshing.

NEEDING

New clothess!!

FEELING

I don’t know what it is called but it’s when girls are you know, on their period. Sigh

WEARING

Another white oversized tee that I bought from Bench and a pink comfy shorts short.

5 Facts About Me

1. I don’t eat egg. I don’t know why but for me it tastes so pale. Weirdly enough though, I only eat egg when it’s scrambled. Haha!

2. I love to sing so much and my biggest frustration in life is to have a very nice voice. 😂

3. I don’t like coffee at all.

4. I don’t find it hard to have a crush on boys with long eye lashes, fine jaw lines, dimples. Whyyyy 😍

5. I love hugs. I love it so much. I love the feeling of having someone making you feel warm when you’re cold. I love it because I know I am not alone, and I feel safe.

Letters To People: Vol. 2

A week has passed and I totally have another baggage on my chest.

1. It seems like you’ve grown from the recent events of your life. Bravo, you did good there. Do not stop growing and learning things.

2. I know you are going through a lot right now and you’ve went through a lot already. Graduation’s near my dear. I am so proud of you. I wish to see you right now but I can’t. But come here, you. I’ll give you a hug. You are loved.

3. I really don’t want to think that you are that bad to block me on every social media accounts that we both have. Grabe. I am upset, we could’ve been good friends kaya. But okay. Let go.

4. I don’t want to argue. Who wins over pride? ☺ Peace be with you. And to your insensitive slash immature set of folks. ✌

5. Hi, you, little distracted creature. I miss you. I hope you’re having a good time! 💗